Day 100 - We Made It!! WAHOO! - June 17th
100 hundred days of happy: COMPLETE! And we did not go out without a bang! Several months ago my brother and sister-in-law asked me if we had plans for the evening of June 17th. They wanted us to join them in going to a David Archuleta Concert that would be held in Layton, Utah. They knew how much I 'Idol'lized Davy, and were being so kind to include me in this wonderful outing. Little did I know then, that this would be our 100 day mark. There could not have been a better way to celebrate the 100th day of this journey! It was thrilling to say the least to be able to watch and hear this concert, he(Davy) is such a talented incredible young man, with such an incredible message to world. This was just the best way to end this journey with even a little more Happy!
I wanted to conclude this blog with the Dr.s report on the final results of tests that were done last week. I figured this would be a good ending for all those who have been so kind to follow along with me on this journey.
I am so pleased to announce that all visible tumors on my ribs and spine have disappeared. The cancer did eat away at of one of my vertebra's so am actually 3/4 of an inch shorter than I used to be, all the more evidence that I've always been short a few cogs. The pet scan showed there are no new lesions appearing, although it may be decades before the old lesions will disappear. The bone marrow biopsy showed only 1% abnormal cells, down from 15%. My blood tests showed that the kappa light chains that were very escalated before receiving treatments are now reading normal, although the lambda chains are below normal, something that they hope will equalize with a little more time. All in all a very good response to treatment, which we are so happy for!
I have to admit when I was waiting to hear the results, there was a little (or big) part of me that so wanted to hear that this cancer was 100% eradicated. That the treatments had knocked it out of the ball park. So there was a little let down, when I heard there was still a little work to be done. That being said, I will still be receiving the same maintenance therapy had all the numbers been perfect. Multiple Myeloma really isn't the same as other cancers and is more chronic in nature but treatments are highly effective.
I am so grateful that things have gone so good, but more than that, I am thankful for multitude of blessings that have come to me because of this journey. I never knew the magnitude of the love and care that could bless my life from so many beloved family members and wonderful friends, and even strangers! I have been cradled in love of my Heavenly Father and know he answers every prayer that is offered, in a way that will be the best for each of us!
As I have contemplated this journey and it's results I have come to this conclusion: Had I gotten the 100% numbers that I was hoping for, I might have felt much less compelled to be responsible for healthy life habits, which I do believe is the biggest component of a complete recovery. I know there are many improvements I could make in this area and have a long ways to go. Its very plain and simple; I'm just a work in progress, and I ain't done yet! So I bid this blog good-bye for now, but hope you'll check back with me a year from now, for more happy news!
Sunday, June 18, 2017
Friday, June 16, 2017
Day 99 - The Number 1 Spot on the Gratitude List - June 16th
How do I even begin to express the depth of gratitude I have for my incredible, loving, selfless, tireless, non stop, diligent, caring, benevolent, kind, meticulous, faithful, hardworking, steadfast, most amazing care giver ever. I am sure there has never been a better one! I also am sure that there has probably never been more sacrifices made for one person on this planet ever! I have been the recipient of sooooooooo many acts of love it is most humbling to me to realize someone could give so much of them self, to care for another so deep and complete! I can never come close to making up all that has been sacrificed for me, but one thing I know, is I certainly need to give my all to staying healthy, because I've got a lot of repaying to do! Thanks to the best Honey bunch ever! Love you more than words can tell!
How do I even begin to express the depth of gratitude I have for my incredible, loving, selfless, tireless, non stop, diligent, caring, benevolent, kind, meticulous, faithful, hardworking, steadfast, most amazing care giver ever. I am sure there has never been a better one! I also am sure that there has probably never been more sacrifices made for one person on this planet ever! I have been the recipient of sooooooooo many acts of love it is most humbling to me to realize someone could give so much of them self, to care for another so deep and complete! I can never come close to making up all that has been sacrificed for me, but one thing I know, is I certainly need to give my all to staying healthy, because I've got a lot of repaying to do! Thanks to the best Honey bunch ever! Love you more than words can tell!
Thursday, June 15, 2017
Day 98 - And the Greatest of These, is Love! - June 15th
I have mentioned many times all of the incredible things my family has done for me, but perhaps I haven't mentioned how much they mean to me. I really can't imagine what this journey would have been like without them! Their love and support has made all the difference in this world! I have been so blessed to experience so many wonderful times with them these past months, as they have each sacrificed their time, talents, love and devotion, in their own individual ways! I can never thank Heavenly Father enough for allowing me this glimpse of eternity, no wonder they call it Heaven!
I have mentioned many times all of the incredible things my family has done for me, but perhaps I haven't mentioned how much they mean to me. I really can't imagine what this journey would have been like without them! Their love and support has made all the difference in this world! I have been so blessed to experience so many wonderful times with them these past months, as they have each sacrificed their time, talents, love and devotion, in their own individual ways! I can never thank Heavenly Father enough for allowing me this glimpse of eternity, no wonder they call it Heaven!
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
Day 97 - The Love Only a Dog Can Give and Get - June 14th
Tonight was dog training class again and I have to say there was a significant difference in the way Kimba acted. No, she wasn't by any means perfect, and yes, she was so excited when we got there, she had the strength of a lion (lyon) no pun intended, but with a little bit of work she was actually looking to me for direction! She even got one, 'Phenomenal' from the instructor! Oh happy night! It was so incredible to finally see a difference, and I totally realize this could have been a fluke, but I'm counting it as a win, and who doesn't love a win once in awhile!
Which brings me to # 3 on the Gratitude List: I am so grateful for this puppy, that has turned into a teen-doggie, and will shortly be a full fledged dog.
I found out about this cancer adventure just 3 short days, before we were to pick her up at the breeders, she was 8 weeks old. My number one question to the doctor, was if he thought I would be able to still get her in lieu of my new circumstances. Sadly, he told me that it probably would not be the best case scenario in my situation. I was devastated as we had watched her grow from birth and were so looking forward to being able to bring her home. It was then that my children stepped in assuring me that they would fill in the blank spaces for me, watching and caring for her when I couldn't. We brought our new puppy home with high hopes and high concerns.
I was able to be with her for the first 3 months before my stem cell transplant, she gave me so much love and comfort, and sometimes a little grief and frustration, but there were so many days that having her next to me brought a solace that was incomparable!
Then it was time for my transplant and a loving, daughter and her family took Kimba in as their own. She became a part of their family as I began my journey. They lovingly shared pictures as they began their own adventure, selflessly loving her and sharing their life with her. She had such a great time, no adjustment time was needed for her, but I'm sure there was plenty adjusting in my daughters household, although all they shared was how great things were!
30 days later, I was finally well enough to get her back. I was actually afraid she wouldn't want to come home after having such exciting company to be with, and I'm not all so sure she felt it was a good trade, but home she came.
Now 67 days later, 670 attempts at jumping in the Murano, and 67,000 steps devoted to walks in the park, I am so thankful for the joy and life this dog shares with me. She has the uncanny ability to soothe and smooth over those down days, and makes sure that I don't stay complacent with being down. She also is good at teaching me patience, tolerance and helping me to realize that it takes a lot of work to over come some of our hang-ups. It's a marvelous thing to be loved by a dog who never holds back on love even when I'm not at my best, and it's been great to love her even when she's not at hers!
Tonight was dog training class again and I have to say there was a significant difference in the way Kimba acted. No, she wasn't by any means perfect, and yes, she was so excited when we got there, she had the strength of a lion (lyon) no pun intended, but with a little bit of work she was actually looking to me for direction! She even got one, 'Phenomenal' from the instructor! Oh happy night! It was so incredible to finally see a difference, and I totally realize this could have been a fluke, but I'm counting it as a win, and who doesn't love a win once in awhile!
Which brings me to # 3 on the Gratitude List: I am so grateful for this puppy, that has turned into a teen-doggie, and will shortly be a full fledged dog.
I found out about this cancer adventure just 3 short days, before we were to pick her up at the breeders, she was 8 weeks old. My number one question to the doctor, was if he thought I would be able to still get her in lieu of my new circumstances. Sadly, he told me that it probably would not be the best case scenario in my situation. I was devastated as we had watched her grow from birth and were so looking forward to being able to bring her home. It was then that my children stepped in assuring me that they would fill in the blank spaces for me, watching and caring for her when I couldn't. We brought our new puppy home with high hopes and high concerns.
I was able to be with her for the first 3 months before my stem cell transplant, she gave me so much love and comfort, and sometimes a little grief and frustration, but there were so many days that having her next to me brought a solace that was incomparable!
Then it was time for my transplant and a loving, daughter and her family took Kimba in as their own. She became a part of their family as I began my journey. They lovingly shared pictures as they began their own adventure, selflessly loving her and sharing their life with her. She had such a great time, no adjustment time was needed for her, but I'm sure there was plenty adjusting in my daughters household, although all they shared was how great things were!
30 days later, I was finally well enough to get her back. I was actually afraid she wouldn't want to come home after having such exciting company to be with, and I'm not all so sure she felt it was a good trade, but home she came.
Now 67 days later, 670 attempts at jumping in the Murano, and 67,000 steps devoted to walks in the park, I am so thankful for the joy and life this dog shares with me. She has the uncanny ability to soothe and smooth over those down days, and makes sure that I don't stay complacent with being down. She also is good at teaching me patience, tolerance and helping me to realize that it takes a lot of work to over come some of our hang-ups. It's a marvelous thing to be loved by a dog who never holds back on love even when I'm not at my best, and it's been great to love her even when she's not at hers!
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| From left to right, Kimba, Diane |
Tuesday, June 13, 2017
Day 96 - The Best of the Best - June 13th
I have mentioned this before, but it wouldn't be right to go without expressing my gratitude for the unbelievable care and expertise that has come from the Huntsman Cancer Institute! From the Doctors, to the P.A.'s, to the nurses and their assistants, to the office staff to the physical therapists, none have been short of amazing! What an incredible hospital to have been able receive care from.
I was able to witness a little of the hiring process, as a few of the applicants (out of 100's) passed in and out of the gym while I was receiving my strength training. All of the applicants that I met seemed so qualified and impressive. I thought how could a hiring team possibly pick out of so many great individuals, what a difficult challenge. Then my trainer explained that the process wasn't as difficult as it seemed as the deciding criteria for those that were hired was the compassion and care they displayed for others.
No wonder this is the type of individuals that I have rubbed shoulders with these past 8 months! Truly they are the Best of the Best!
I have mentioned this before, but it wouldn't be right to go without expressing my gratitude for the unbelievable care and expertise that has come from the Huntsman Cancer Institute! From the Doctors, to the P.A.'s, to the nurses and their assistants, to the office staff to the physical therapists, none have been short of amazing! What an incredible hospital to have been able receive care from.
I was able to witness a little of the hiring process, as a few of the applicants (out of 100's) passed in and out of the gym while I was receiving my strength training. All of the applicants that I met seemed so qualified and impressive. I thought how could a hiring team possibly pick out of so many great individuals, what a difficult challenge. Then my trainer explained that the process wasn't as difficult as it seemed as the deciding criteria for those that were hired was the compassion and care they displayed for others.
No wonder this is the type of individuals that I have rubbed shoulders with these past 8 months! Truly they are the Best of the Best!
Monday, June 12, 2017
Day 95 - Gifts Beyond Measure - June 12th
Gratitude list #5: I will be eternally grateful for all the fasting and prayers that have gone up in my behalf. I have felt those prayers and immeasurable love through this entire adventure! Thanks to all of those who have given of your time and sacrifice for me in such a sacred way!
I am also eternally grateful to a Heavenly Father who hears and answers all prayers that are offered up in humbleness and meekness. I know he knows each of us and our unique situations, and answers our prayers according to what is best in our behalf! I am also so very thankful that we can lay our burdens and struggles at our Saviors feet and let him carry through those trials. I love Them both with all my heart, and know Their gifts are beyond measure!
Gratitude list #5: I will be eternally grateful for all the fasting and prayers that have gone up in my behalf. I have felt those prayers and immeasurable love through this entire adventure! Thanks to all of those who have given of your time and sacrifice for me in such a sacred way!
I am also eternally grateful to a Heavenly Father who hears and answers all prayers that are offered up in humbleness and meekness. I know he knows each of us and our unique situations, and answers our prayers according to what is best in our behalf! I am also so very thankful that we can lay our burdens and struggles at our Saviors feet and let him carry through those trials. I love Them both with all my heart, and know Their gifts are beyond measure!
Sunday, June 11, 2017
Day 94 - How Sweet it is! - June 11th
All I can say is it possible to get a day that is too sweet? I'll answer that,"Nope!!!"
I had it all planned out to write about how wonderful it was to be able to wear make-up instead of a mask to church today, and to sit in the church pews pain free while remembering back to October of last year when it was difficult to make it through one meeting without excruciating pain that would last for the rest of the day and night! These are the things that were making it to my grateful list #6. And I will still rate them in my # 6 spot, but the day just kept getting sweeter!
I got to go to visit my cute little better twinner and her puppy today! How great that was to have the freedom to visit the special friends in my life with out any special precautions!
But.... the day just got sweeter! While cleaning up our dinner tonight I heard little children's voices, and thought either we were getting a visit from the neighbors or there were some grandchildren that had landed here to make me happy! Was I ever surprised when I opened the door to see my children and grandchildren bringing all kinds of cute decorations to the the Bowery! They yelled at me to quickly shut the door, (I guess I was not to see their displays of joy yet) so I quickly shut the door and pretended I hadn't seen anything while Robert also snuck out. Soon they were calling my name, and low and behold there was the sweetest 100 day celebration waiting for me! Good thing for them they didn't see the 100 tears shed while I was waiting, knowing that they were being so sweet! So we had a totally wonderful evening, topped off by eating, what else but SWEETS!
All I can say is it possible to get a day that is too sweet? I'll answer that,"Nope!!!"
I had it all planned out to write about how wonderful it was to be able to wear make-up instead of a mask to church today, and to sit in the church pews pain free while remembering back to October of last year when it was difficult to make it through one meeting without excruciating pain that would last for the rest of the day and night! These are the things that were making it to my grateful list #6. And I will still rate them in my # 6 spot, but the day just kept getting sweeter!
I got to go to visit my cute little better twinner and her puppy today! How great that was to have the freedom to visit the special friends in my life with out any special precautions!
But.... the day just got sweeter! While cleaning up our dinner tonight I heard little children's voices, and thought either we were getting a visit from the neighbors or there were some grandchildren that had landed here to make me happy! Was I ever surprised when I opened the door to see my children and grandchildren bringing all kinds of cute decorations to the the Bowery! They yelled at me to quickly shut the door, (I guess I was not to see their displays of joy yet) so I quickly shut the door and pretended I hadn't seen anything while Robert also snuck out. Soon they were calling my name, and low and behold there was the sweetest 100 day celebration waiting for me! Good thing for them they didn't see the 100 tears shed while I was waiting, knowing that they were being so sweet! So we had a totally wonderful evening, topped off by eating, what else but SWEETS!
Saturday, June 10, 2017
Day 93 - Ahh, the Great Outdoors! June 10th
What an incredibly beautiful day!
# 7 on the Grateful List!
Not only was the weather perfect today, but the company was perfect! I was able to work out in the yard all day, with the best of companions; Robert, the dogs, the lawn mower, the strawberries and the flowers! It was like heaven to be out and about, mulling around in the yard, but what made it even better, was the fact that because of the very kind acts of service and generous tokens of love that have been given to us, there was hardly a weed in the way of all that heaven. I'm afraid without those magnanimous offerings I might have felt I was visiting the other destination after this life ! Thank everyone who made my Heaven possible!
What an incredibly beautiful day!
# 7 on the Grateful List!
Not only was the weather perfect today, but the company was perfect! I was able to work out in the yard all day, with the best of companions; Robert, the dogs, the lawn mower, the strawberries and the flowers! It was like heaven to be out and about, mulling around in the yard, but what made it even better, was the fact that because of the very kind acts of service and generous tokens of love that have been given to us, there was hardly a weed in the way of all that heaven. I'm afraid without those magnanimous offerings I might have felt I was visiting the other destination after this life ! Thank everyone who made my Heaven possible!
Friday, June 9, 2017
Day 92 - Ummumm, Almost as Good as Sugar! June 9th
Grateful List: #8 - I'm sure grateful that Cafe Rio still makes the best Chicken Tortilla Soup around and that it definitely was worth the 93 day wait to enjoy it again! It's official today! No more food restrictions! I can eat anywhere, travel anywhere and stay anywhere! That being said, I finished my tests and met with Dr Sbarov today, which opens another VOLUME of things I am grateful for! I'll be talking about those blessings as we continue our countdown! Stay in Tune........
Grateful List: #8 - I'm sure grateful that Cafe Rio still makes the best Chicken Tortilla Soup around and that it definitely was worth the 93 day wait to enjoy it again! It's official today! No more food restrictions! I can eat anywhere, travel anywhere and stay anywhere! That being said, I finished my tests and met with Dr Sbarov today, which opens another VOLUME of things I am grateful for! I'll be talking about those blessings as we continue our countdown! Stay in Tune........
Thursday, June 8, 2017
Day 91 - 1 Down , 9 to Go! - June 8th
Definitely on my list of things to be grateful for:
#9 - I'm down to 3 medications that I'm taking right now - Happy Days! I am also grateful for the other 11 medications that helped me to get here. How blessed I have been for the knowledge and experience that have led to the comprehensive treatment at the Huntsman. Even more humbling, is thinking about all those that blazed the trail before me, giving of their time and health to benefit the treatment of those who followed. Most dear to my heart, is knowing that my mother was one of those that sacrificed so much in her own journey! How grateful I have been to have felt her presence lifting and giving me hope through this incredible adventure!
Definitely on my list of things to be grateful for:
#9 - I'm down to 3 medications that I'm taking right now - Happy Days! I am also grateful for the other 11 medications that helped me to get here. How blessed I have been for the knowledge and experience that have led to the comprehensive treatment at the Huntsman. Even more humbling, is thinking about all those that blazed the trail before me, giving of their time and health to benefit the treatment of those who followed. Most dear to my heart, is knowing that my mother was one of those that sacrificed so much in her own journey! How grateful I have been to have felt her presence lifting and giving me hope through this incredible adventure!
Wednesday, June 7, 2017
Day 90 - Count down - June 7th
Can't hardly believe it - 10 days to go. In Celebration, I will be listing a few of the things that have made this journey one to be ever grateful for - # 10 - Not having to shave my legs for about 80 of those days. We are at about once a week now, so that is the other thing I'm grateful for, hair is starting to grow back, although I probably never would have complained had it decided to stay away, it is nice to know my body is returning back to normal!
More to come!
Can't hardly believe it - 10 days to go. In Celebration, I will be listing a few of the things that have made this journey one to be ever grateful for - # 10 - Not having to shave my legs for about 80 of those days. We are at about once a week now, so that is the other thing I'm grateful for, hair is starting to grow back, although I probably never would have complained had it decided to stay away, it is nice to know my body is returning back to normal!
More to come!
Tuesday, June 6, 2017
Day 89 - Power of Focus -June 6th
While I was having the bone marrow biopsy yesterday, the doctor had me use concentrated breathing during parts of the procedure. It was a lot like the type of breathing used for baby birthing, the only gyp was I didn't get a baby... on second thought at my age maybe that was okay! She also engaged me in conversation while she proceeded to do what needed to done. I was thoroughly amazed at how much better things went. I'm sure her experience and technique had a lot to do with how well things went, but I definitely felt a difference while I was participating in the breathing exercises.
This reminded me of the talk given at Women's Conference in April by Bonnie H. Cordon. Part of her talk was dedicated to sharing the true experience of sister who had been going through a very difficult time with her cancer treatments and side effects. Things had gotten so terrible, this sister had declared chemo therapy a human rights violation and told her husband she had had it and was done with it all! It was sheer inspiration when her husband declared they needed to find someone to serve. She couldn't believe what she was hearing; she was so ill and he wanted her to serve?!?
Miraculously, through the few better days she had, she was able to begin serving. As she continued, somehow she was even able to find ways of even doing small things on her worst days. As she served she found the days going by much faster and happier. She said the days she focused on helping others her outlook was bright and cheerful but when she focused on her pain and suffering her days turned dark. She testified that service literally saved her life! It was the change of focus that changed her whole experience! What a important lesson I hope I can focus on also!
While I was having the bone marrow biopsy yesterday, the doctor had me use concentrated breathing during parts of the procedure. It was a lot like the type of breathing used for baby birthing, the only gyp was I didn't get a baby... on second thought at my age maybe that was okay! She also engaged me in conversation while she proceeded to do what needed to done. I was thoroughly amazed at how much better things went. I'm sure her experience and technique had a lot to do with how well things went, but I definitely felt a difference while I was participating in the breathing exercises.
This reminded me of the talk given at Women's Conference in April by Bonnie H. Cordon. Part of her talk was dedicated to sharing the true experience of sister who had been going through a very difficult time with her cancer treatments and side effects. Things had gotten so terrible, this sister had declared chemo therapy a human rights violation and told her husband she had had it and was done with it all! It was sheer inspiration when her husband declared they needed to find someone to serve. She couldn't believe what she was hearing; she was so ill and he wanted her to serve?!?
Miraculously, through the few better days she had, she was able to begin serving. As she continued, somehow she was even able to find ways of even doing small things on her worst days. As she served she found the days going by much faster and happier. She said the days she focused on helping others her outlook was bright and cheerful but when she focused on her pain and suffering her days turned dark. She testified that service literally saved her life! It was the change of focus that changed her whole experience! What a important lesson I hope I can focus on also!
Monday, June 5, 2017
Day 88 - Bye Bye Love - June 5th
Today I had appointments up at the Huntsman Center to begin the testing to see if this cancer has said "adios"yet.
We did the bone marrow biopsy again along with blood and camp testing. We won't know the results on much that was done today, until this Friday, but there was a wonderful decree made that I did not have to wear my lovely masks public anymore! HooRay!!!! I have so appreciated what they have done for me but I have to say, I really don't have a problem saying "Adieu" to them! (Except for when I mow the lawn, another restriction lifted!) So if there is anyone out there needing a nose fashion statement right now, I've got you covered!
Today I had appointments up at the Huntsman Center to begin the testing to see if this cancer has said "adios"yet.
We did the bone marrow biopsy again along with blood and camp testing. We won't know the results on much that was done today, until this Friday, but there was a wonderful decree made that I did not have to wear my lovely masks public anymore! HooRay!!!! I have so appreciated what they have done for me but I have to say, I really don't have a problem saying "Adieu" to them! (Except for when I mow the lawn, another restriction lifted!) So if there is anyone out there needing a nose fashion statement right now, I've got you covered!
Sunday, June 4, 2017
Day 87 - My Favorite Day, (Again) - June 4th
I cannot begin to express how much I need Sundays! I need every minute of the uplifting 3 hours I spend in hallowed worship to my Heavenly Father and my Savior. It replenishes me and puts fuel in my tank. My little (or a little longer, on some days) quiet nap doesn't hurt either.
I just wanted to share a few of the uplifting thoughts that were expressed today. For those looking for that missing piece in their life. "God manifests himself to all of us who are seeking to know Him, black and white, bond and free, male and female, he remembereth the heathen and all are alike unto God, both Jew and Gentile."
Here's the key ingredient to that formula, It's our responsibility to bring ourselves to Him, he can't force us, but is waiting with His arms open, no matter what our condition! I have felt His love and His mercy, even when I don't feel all that deserving, and Sundays bring an abundance of that!
I cannot begin to express how much I need Sundays! I need every minute of the uplifting 3 hours I spend in hallowed worship to my Heavenly Father and my Savior. It replenishes me and puts fuel in my tank. My little (or a little longer, on some days) quiet nap doesn't hurt either.
I just wanted to share a few of the uplifting thoughts that were expressed today. For those looking for that missing piece in their life. "God manifests himself to all of us who are seeking to know Him, black and white, bond and free, male and female, he remembereth the heathen and all are alike unto God, both Jew and Gentile."
Here's the key ingredient to that formula, It's our responsibility to bring ourselves to Him, he can't force us, but is waiting with His arms open, no matter what our condition! I have felt His love and His mercy, even when I don't feel all that deserving, and Sundays bring an abundance of that!
Saturday, June 3, 2017
Day 86 - Sunshiny Days - June 3rd
It was a beautiful day today, with sun shining bright, birds singing, butterflies flying, such a great day to be outside. As the day carried on it definitely began to feel like summer!
I was helping my hubby with a fence for the dog in the afternoon when the warm sunshine began to actually get hot. As I was putting some little stakes in the ground to secure the fence, my mind drifted back to the beginning of this journey when we were staying up at the patient housing. We had been taking walks most everyday, most days were cool but a light coat was sufficient to keep us warm. One day it was a little warmer so we decided to go to the Peace Gardens near by our room. It was beautiful there but the sun was shining so bright it just melted me with every step. It took all of the pleasure out of being outdoors. In fact at that time the sun could take me out anytime it was out.
Such a major difference between now and then, another reminder of how far this journey has brought me, and what a joy it is to be out when the sun is too!
It was a beautiful day today, with sun shining bright, birds singing, butterflies flying, such a great day to be outside. As the day carried on it definitely began to feel like summer!
I was helping my hubby with a fence for the dog in the afternoon when the warm sunshine began to actually get hot. As I was putting some little stakes in the ground to secure the fence, my mind drifted back to the beginning of this journey when we were staying up at the patient housing. We had been taking walks most everyday, most days were cool but a light coat was sufficient to keep us warm. One day it was a little warmer so we decided to go to the Peace Gardens near by our room. It was beautiful there but the sun was shining so bright it just melted me with every step. It took all of the pleasure out of being outdoors. In fact at that time the sun could take me out anytime it was out.
Such a major difference between now and then, another reminder of how far this journey has brought me, and what a joy it is to be out when the sun is too!
Friday, June 2, 2017
Day 85 - 15 Days to Go! - June 2nd
Even though it is 15 days to my 100 day Celebration, I begin all my testing on Monday, June 5th. They will be re-doing all the tests we began with, including that nasty Bone Marrow Biopsy. I have to admit I have been hoping for some great new invention to circumvent that procedure, so if any of you medical students out there have been holding back, please hurry, we have still have 3 days left!!
By June 9th, I will finish the last of my testing and meet with the Doctor that afternoon. I will be finding out where we sit as far as my immunity and cancer. THEN, GET READY CAFE RIO! IT'S TORTILLA SOUP ALA-MODE!😋
Even though it is 15 days to my 100 day Celebration, I begin all my testing on Monday, June 5th. They will be re-doing all the tests we began with, including that nasty Bone Marrow Biopsy. I have to admit I have been hoping for some great new invention to circumvent that procedure, so if any of you medical students out there have been holding back, please hurry, we have still have 3 days left!!
By June 9th, I will finish the last of my testing and meet with the Doctor that afternoon. I will be finding out where we sit as far as my immunity and cancer. THEN, GET READY CAFE RIO! IT'S TORTILLA SOUP ALA-MODE!😋
Thursday, June 1, 2017
Day 84 - Status Quo - June 1st
We've certainly come so very far in these 84 days! Tonight's blog has to do with some of the battles won and some of the challenges still to be conquered at this point in my journey. I am so delighted to report that I feel officially over the cold that visited a couple of weeks ago, which is a giant accomplishment that I'm so happy about. I did find that my level of fatigue increased substantially as my body fought that battle, and even have felt a little of the residual effects of it this week. To be honest, I didn't expect it would have effected me as much as it did, but I guess that is why they give you 100 days of recovery.
As far as my strength recovery goes; there are times I feel almost back to normal and ready to leap tall buildings in a single bound, yet, there are times I can tell I still have a ways to go. I know that the exercises they have me doing at the Huntsman have been a giant help besides being great therapy. This has been such a great experience!
As for the foods I am able to eat, Almost anything I desire goes, except raspberries and blackberries. Any of the other restrictions I really don't desire anyhow, so it all works. I still can't eat in crowded restaurants, but I'm counting the days on my fingers and toes now.
Sugar; Is still calling my name, and I had to cut back on my popcorn as I guess you can really get a little too much fiber.........'nuf said!
Hair regrowth; fuzzy wuzzy's not as bare, but you've got to look close to see the hair!
Best Happy of the day; When we woke up this morning my husbands allergies were killing him, when I realized that this is the time when my allergies really kick in also, I haven't had a hint of of sneeze or a sniffle yet, and I'm not going to tell those new stem cells a thing about it!
We've certainly come so very far in these 84 days! Tonight's blog has to do with some of the battles won and some of the challenges still to be conquered at this point in my journey. I am so delighted to report that I feel officially over the cold that visited a couple of weeks ago, which is a giant accomplishment that I'm so happy about. I did find that my level of fatigue increased substantially as my body fought that battle, and even have felt a little of the residual effects of it this week. To be honest, I didn't expect it would have effected me as much as it did, but I guess that is why they give you 100 days of recovery.
As far as my strength recovery goes; there are times I feel almost back to normal and ready to leap tall buildings in a single bound, yet, there are times I can tell I still have a ways to go. I know that the exercises they have me doing at the Huntsman have been a giant help besides being great therapy. This has been such a great experience!
As for the foods I am able to eat, Almost anything I desire goes, except raspberries and blackberries. Any of the other restrictions I really don't desire anyhow, so it all works. I still can't eat in crowded restaurants, but I'm counting the days on my fingers and toes now.
Sugar; Is still calling my name, and I had to cut back on my popcorn as I guess you can really get a little too much fiber.........'nuf said!
Hair regrowth; fuzzy wuzzy's not as bare, but you've got to look close to see the hair!
Best Happy of the day; When we woke up this morning my husbands allergies were killing him, when I realized that this is the time when my allergies really kick in also, I haven't had a hint of of sneeze or a sniffle yet, and I'm not going to tell those new stem cells a thing about it!
Wednesday, May 31, 2017
Day 83 - Good News! - May 31st
In the past, I've shared ideas of a few of the products that have been of immense comfort to me as I have traveled this journey in hopes that these ideas might be of a little help for those traveling their own journey. Tonight I wanted to share about another product that has been very valuable in light of the fresh produce restrictions that are looming out there for the 100 day mark.
As all fresh produce carry those little rascally microbes, washing meticulously is essential to their being safe to eat. I've spent hours washing, scrubbing, sanitizing and drying these desirable delicacies and every minute has been worth it! I have also encountered some pretty discouraging days when the produce that was so extensively taken care of has wilted or accumulated a whole new set of microbes. Happily, Rubbermaid has come to the rescue recently with their new fresh vent technology. Salads last much longer in these containers and strawberries and blueberries that have had a vinegar bath will last fresh and crisp for a good 2 weeks and more!! You might think I'm getting some kind of bonus from Rubbermaid for this endorsement, but as of yet nothing has come in the mail. It's just great to share some good news among all the bad that seems to be hanging around lately!
In the past, I've shared ideas of a few of the products that have been of immense comfort to me as I have traveled this journey in hopes that these ideas might be of a little help for those traveling their own journey. Tonight I wanted to share about another product that has been very valuable in light of the fresh produce restrictions that are looming out there for the 100 day mark.
As all fresh produce carry those little rascally microbes, washing meticulously is essential to their being safe to eat. I've spent hours washing, scrubbing, sanitizing and drying these desirable delicacies and every minute has been worth it! I have also encountered some pretty discouraging days when the produce that was so extensively taken care of has wilted or accumulated a whole new set of microbes. Happily, Rubbermaid has come to the rescue recently with their new fresh vent technology. Salads last much longer in these containers and strawberries and blueberries that have had a vinegar bath will last fresh and crisp for a good 2 weeks and more!! You might think I'm getting some kind of bonus from Rubbermaid for this endorsement, but as of yet nothing has come in the mail. It's just great to share some good news among all the bad that seems to be hanging around lately!
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Day 82 - Do unto others - May 29th
We had a beautiful lesson in relief society last Sunday on service to others. It was wonderfully presented and covered many of the different dimensions of charity, from helping others, to forgiveness, to putting others first. It was such a good reminder of what kind of people we are striving to be. Again, I must share my sincere gratitude to all those that have touched our lives with their love and service! The bounty has been so Ginormous, we cannot take it all in and we are so extremely grateful!
As I listened to this lesson, my thoughts drifted back to a recent conversation I had with my grandson. As we were talking about the events in his life, he mentioned that there was one of his peers, that had taken to ridiculing and teasing him, making life at school not so pleasant. I know that these experiences happen in many situations and settings and I also realize that many times we grow all the stronger because of, or in spite of them. Still it broke my heart to know my grandson was feeling the pain of this teasing.
He continued his story with a little anecdote ending explaining there had been an event at school in the interim of this teasing where both children had an opportunity to perform some athletic tasks. Smiling he said he was able do his best and apparently he out performed his tormentor. Wanting to be on the cheering side of my grandson, I said, " Did you say to him, 'look who's not in shape now?"
Then my grandson looked up at me a little puzzled and answered, " "No, you treat others how you want them to treat you!"
Oops, my bad, another lesson learned from the mouth of babes, and he hadn't even had the relief society lesson yet!
We had a beautiful lesson in relief society last Sunday on service to others. It was wonderfully presented and covered many of the different dimensions of charity, from helping others, to forgiveness, to putting others first. It was such a good reminder of what kind of people we are striving to be. Again, I must share my sincere gratitude to all those that have touched our lives with their love and service! The bounty has been so Ginormous, we cannot take it all in and we are so extremely grateful!
As I listened to this lesson, my thoughts drifted back to a recent conversation I had with my grandson. As we were talking about the events in his life, he mentioned that there was one of his peers, that had taken to ridiculing and teasing him, making life at school not so pleasant. I know that these experiences happen in many situations and settings and I also realize that many times we grow all the stronger because of, or in spite of them. Still it broke my heart to know my grandson was feeling the pain of this teasing.
He continued his story with a little anecdote ending explaining there had been an event at school in the interim of this teasing where both children had an opportunity to perform some athletic tasks. Smiling he said he was able do his best and apparently he out performed his tormentor. Wanting to be on the cheering side of my grandson, I said, " Did you say to him, 'look who's not in shape now?"
Then my grandson looked up at me a little puzzled and answered, " "No, you treat others how you want them to treat you!"
Oops, my bad, another lesson learned from the mouth of babes, and he hadn't even had the relief society lesson yet!
Monday, May 29, 2017
Day 81 - Families are Forever! - May 29th
We had such a beautiful, wonderful day, today as we visited the graves of family members who have passed from this mortal state. Memorial Day is such a celebration of those lives and legacies that hold us together and inspire us to live better. We met Robert's brother up in Heber City to visit their parent's and grandparent's graves. Some of our children and grandchildren were also able to come and reminisce a few memories also. After visiting at the grave site we ordered our lunch at the Train Station on main street in Heber. This is a special yearly tradition, made a little more fun by the fact that Robert's dad worked there as a young man and his name was discovered listed on a wall of former employees by our nephew the year grandpa passed away.
We took our lunch to a little park to eat where we met up with another one of our daughters and her family. We all had a delightful time catching up with one another while the grandchildren played together.
After enjoying some fun time together we went back to the cemetery with our daughter and her family who had not been able to meet us there earlier. We shared a few more memories of Grandma and Grandpa Lyon with their little family, as Grandma has only been gone about a year, the boys had quite a few memories of her and participated quite a bit in some special discussion. As we were leaving our littlest grandson was quite melancholy so his dad held him in his arms, explaining that things were going to be fine as we would see Grandma and Grandpa again some day. Without changing his sullenness, our grandson announced, "I really miss Cohen!", our other grandson he had just been playing with at the park who had returned home. We were a little surprised that he had been thinking of his earlier moments of fun, but it just served as another reminder of how wonderful it is to united with your family, past and present!
We had such a beautiful, wonderful day, today as we visited the graves of family members who have passed from this mortal state. Memorial Day is such a celebration of those lives and legacies that hold us together and inspire us to live better. We met Robert's brother up in Heber City to visit their parent's and grandparent's graves. Some of our children and grandchildren were also able to come and reminisce a few memories also. After visiting at the grave site we ordered our lunch at the Train Station on main street in Heber. This is a special yearly tradition, made a little more fun by the fact that Robert's dad worked there as a young man and his name was discovered listed on a wall of former employees by our nephew the year grandpa passed away.
We took our lunch to a little park to eat where we met up with another one of our daughters and her family. We all had a delightful time catching up with one another while the grandchildren played together.
After enjoying some fun time together we went back to the cemetery with our daughter and her family who had not been able to meet us there earlier. We shared a few more memories of Grandma and Grandpa Lyon with their little family, as Grandma has only been gone about a year, the boys had quite a few memories of her and participated quite a bit in some special discussion. As we were leaving our littlest grandson was quite melancholy so his dad held him in his arms, explaining that things were going to be fine as we would see Grandma and Grandpa again some day. Without changing his sullenness, our grandson announced, "I really miss Cohen!", our other grandson he had just been playing with at the park who had returned home. We were a little surprised that he had been thinking of his earlier moments of fun, but it just served as another reminder of how wonderful it is to united with your family, past and present!
Sunday, May 28, 2017
Day 80 - Wash and Wear - May 28th
Did I ever mention how much I love Sundays? Even when things don't start out perfectly I always find myself lifted a little higher by the close of the day. I might have seemed a little dis-shelved when I arrived at church today, as there was a little hiccup to my speed bath and fly into church ready mode that I have been enjoying. I have found that keeping my wig a top of the commode has been very convenient for this specific routine. Unfortunately, my wig decided to try out the swimming hole just below it's abode. Yes, it had been flushed, but the whole experience reminded me there is danger in being too complacent when things seem to be going too good.
But, then again a good old swirly can give anyone a fresh new outlook, right... or is that a look of being flushed out? In any case, I found by the end of church it really didn't matter, the lessons learned there reach much deeper than mere outward appearances. There is a healing found there for all ails of this world, even bad wig days!
Did I ever mention how much I love Sundays? Even when things don't start out perfectly I always find myself lifted a little higher by the close of the day. I might have seemed a little dis-shelved when I arrived at church today, as there was a little hiccup to my speed bath and fly into church ready mode that I have been enjoying. I have found that keeping my wig a top of the commode has been very convenient for this specific routine. Unfortunately, my wig decided to try out the swimming hole just below it's abode. Yes, it had been flushed, but the whole experience reminded me there is danger in being too complacent when things seem to be going too good.
But, then again a good old swirly can give anyone a fresh new outlook, right... or is that a look of being flushed out? In any case, I found by the end of church it really didn't matter, the lessons learned there reach much deeper than mere outward appearances. There is a healing found there for all ails of this world, even bad wig days!
Saturday, May 27, 2017
Day 79 - Awesome Day...New Yard - May 27th
As I mentioned in yesterday's blog, we were in for more blessings today because of a couple of generous hearts. As you can see, major transformations happened today, and as predicted, it was just like Christmas, minus the snow! Usually it takes me till it snows to get this much yard work done! Hoping all involved know of the sincere gratitude and indebtedness we feel. It truly was an Awesome day!
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Friday, May 26, 2017
Day 78 - Sunshine in Our Souls - May 26th
Tomorrow could be one of those days, that could parallel Christmas in anticipation excitement! With my Microbe restrictions, we have quite the collection of weeds in my unattended flower beds that are gladly taking residence where beautiful spring flowers once resided. With 22 days of restrictions left before I can undertake that weeding and planting, I'm pretty sure the weeds would have won this summer.
But.....again the extreme goodness in others hearts have lifted ours and brought sunshine into our lives! Tomorrow there will be a landscaping crew coming to our home to replace those undesirable little squatters with beautiful flowers! I am so excited it will be hard to sleep tonight! This gift is something we could have never imagined happening, and brings us to tears that someone could possibly be so generous and kind! The Sunshine in our Souls tonight could light up the whole house!
Tomorrow could be one of those days, that could parallel Christmas in anticipation excitement! With my Microbe restrictions, we have quite the collection of weeds in my unattended flower beds that are gladly taking residence where beautiful spring flowers once resided. With 22 days of restrictions left before I can undertake that weeding and planting, I'm pretty sure the weeds would have won this summer.
But.....again the extreme goodness in others hearts have lifted ours and brought sunshine into our lives! Tomorrow there will be a landscaping crew coming to our home to replace those undesirable little squatters with beautiful flowers! I am so excited it will be hard to sleep tonight! This gift is something we could have never imagined happening, and brings us to tears that someone could possibly be so generous and kind! The Sunshine in our Souls tonight could light up the whole house!
Thursday, May 25, 2017
Day 77 - Temptation - May 25th
Tonight we attended a lovely outdoor social, no mask was needed because of the setting. Part of the dinner was catered out but many dishes were brought Pot Luck. There certainly was a wonderful array of edibles. I still needed to bring my own food because of the dangers of sitting food, but I made a nice little salad that I was very happy with. The trouble came at dessert time, that was definitely total torture, watching the decadent chocolate brownies, cookies and cheesecakes pass by!
It made it very difficult to concentrate on conversations as the lingering aromas tantalized my senses. Somehow I made it through the party, but when I got home, it was more than I could handle! My daughter had given me a recipe for a healthy mug cake that could help satisfy a sweet craving, but I would have had to cook that, so I resorted to the cute little ice cream drumsticks calling my name from the freezer. Yes I answered their call, to my total delight, the only trouble was, they didn't stop calling after the first one disappeared. I was now ready to answer their beckoning, as my husband was still at meetings for the evening... no one would have to know if another drumstick bit the dust, so to speak. Then I remembered the blog, I had already told everyone about my commitment to healthier eating. Drat!
So.... out came the skinny popcorn, a few handfuls later and I was okay. The blog and the popcorn came to the rescue. So I can happily report tonight, I'm not as good as I should be, but I'm not as bad as I once was!
Tonight we attended a lovely outdoor social, no mask was needed because of the setting. Part of the dinner was catered out but many dishes were brought Pot Luck. There certainly was a wonderful array of edibles. I still needed to bring my own food because of the dangers of sitting food, but I made a nice little salad that I was very happy with. The trouble came at dessert time, that was definitely total torture, watching the decadent chocolate brownies, cookies and cheesecakes pass by!
It made it very difficult to concentrate on conversations as the lingering aromas tantalized my senses. Somehow I made it through the party, but when I got home, it was more than I could handle! My daughter had given me a recipe for a healthy mug cake that could help satisfy a sweet craving, but I would have had to cook that, so I resorted to the cute little ice cream drumsticks calling my name from the freezer. Yes I answered their call, to my total delight, the only trouble was, they didn't stop calling after the first one disappeared. I was now ready to answer their beckoning, as my husband was still at meetings for the evening... no one would have to know if another drumstick bit the dust, so to speak. Then I remembered the blog, I had already told everyone about my commitment to healthier eating. Drat!
So.... out came the skinny popcorn, a few handfuls later and I was okay. The blog and the popcorn came to the rescue. So I can happily report tonight, I'm not as good as I should be, but I'm not as bad as I once was!
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Day 76 - Positively Positive! - May 24th
It was Doggie class again tonight! We actually missed last week's class, so I had a little trepidation about how it would go tonight. I figured out a box that I could actually move in and out of the Murano fairly easy, and practiced a lot of the day with Kimba jumping in and out. Although it was not a stretch by any means for Kimba to use it, I figured if it made the transition from home to class easier it would be worth it. Although, she wasn't extremely comfortable jumping in with it, if I took it slow enough she would eventually go in.
As I had figured, when we got to class, Kimba was way over-excited and we began the pulling ride again. Slowly, with enough turns and treats she began to be a little (operative word here) more responsive. Actually, I was able to hear a few of the instructions tonight, one of which was: we need to be really, really happy for the little improvements our dogs are making! We need to emphasize the positive if we want them to make changes from their natural tendencies. If we focus more on giving them corrections the process of training will be a lot slower.
Aha!! Another life lesson to be remembered in our dealings with all living beings, especially those living with us; recognizing the little positive things can help make the big positive things happen!
It was Doggie class again tonight! We actually missed last week's class, so I had a little trepidation about how it would go tonight. I figured out a box that I could actually move in and out of the Murano fairly easy, and practiced a lot of the day with Kimba jumping in and out. Although it was not a stretch by any means for Kimba to use it, I figured if it made the transition from home to class easier it would be worth it. Although, she wasn't extremely comfortable jumping in with it, if I took it slow enough she would eventually go in.
As I had figured, when we got to class, Kimba was way over-excited and we began the pulling ride again. Slowly, with enough turns and treats she began to be a little (operative word here) more responsive. Actually, I was able to hear a few of the instructions tonight, one of which was: we need to be really, really happy for the little improvements our dogs are making! We need to emphasize the positive if we want them to make changes from their natural tendencies. If we focus more on giving them corrections the process of training will be a lot slower.
Aha!! Another life lesson to be remembered in our dealings with all living beings, especially those living with us; recognizing the little positive things can help make the big positive things happen!
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
Day 75 - Just Counting More Blessings - May 23rd
It's hard to believe we are already at the 3/4 mark! I am so thankful for all that has been and for all the love and care I have experienced!
I shared the gym with another immune deficient patient today. He was from Rock Springs and had been here in Salt Lake City since Thanksgiving, on his own cancer journey. He hadn't been able to return to his own home in all this time. I couldn't even begin to imagine how hard that would be! I was counting every minute of the 15 days we were gone from our home! Every day I have been home has been such an incredible blessing!
In lieu of the horrific tragedy in England this past day, I am extremely grateful that instead of witnessing random acts of violence, my life has been filled with beautiful random acts of kindness! What a remedy for these unthinkable situations. I am thankful that I have a faith that let's me know there is a higher power that allows us to have hope, when fear and despair might overcome. So tonight, as I thank God for all he has given me, I pray that he will inspire me to know how I can begin to do my little part in helping other's to find that hope also!
It's hard to believe we are already at the 3/4 mark! I am so thankful for all that has been and for all the love and care I have experienced!
I shared the gym with another immune deficient patient today. He was from Rock Springs and had been here in Salt Lake City since Thanksgiving, on his own cancer journey. He hadn't been able to return to his own home in all this time. I couldn't even begin to imagine how hard that would be! I was counting every minute of the 15 days we were gone from our home! Every day I have been home has been such an incredible blessing!
In lieu of the horrific tragedy in England this past day, I am extremely grateful that instead of witnessing random acts of violence, my life has been filled with beautiful random acts of kindness! What a remedy for these unthinkable situations. I am thankful that I have a faith that let's me know there is a higher power that allows us to have hope, when fear and despair might overcome. So tonight, as I thank God for all he has given me, I pray that he will inspire me to know how I can begin to do my little part in helping other's to find that hope also!
Monday, May 22, 2017
Day 74 - And the Beat Goes On - May 22nd
There were no great events or eye opening episodes today, (thank goodness, sometimes no news is good news) so I'll just update a few of the continuing adventures of my life.
1st - The Non jumping dog - Let me rephrase that - Non jumping into the Murano dog, she'll jump over playground equipment, waterfall rocks, laps or couches! We have relapsed to using the box again to try to get her feeling comfortable, but if she slides while using that, we start all over again. Her biggest trouble comes from her own fear of slipping. I did have a little empathy for her tonight, as she tried to jump in, but slipped back out. I saw how she jumps differently when she is afraid. I actually can relate to her as I have dealt with that paralyzing fear when I play the guitar in front of a crowd. It only took a few slip ups, (the older I get the more those happen too!) now I cannot control the uncontrollable shaking I have in front of a crowd. I play differently when I somewhat expect I'm going to slip up. Maybe if I figure out how to help the dog conquer her fears, it might help me out with a few of my own!
2nd - The Cold - So far, so good, it's just running its course as a normal little cold would.
3rd - The Sugar - I have cut back drastically, but I am finding that it really makes me want to snack on something, and a carrot is not cutting the mustard, I now use skinny popcorn to fill the crevices. I'll have to let you know how detoxing from that habit goes!
There were no great events or eye opening episodes today, (thank goodness, sometimes no news is good news) so I'll just update a few of the continuing adventures of my life.
1st - The Non jumping dog - Let me rephrase that - Non jumping into the Murano dog, she'll jump over playground equipment, waterfall rocks, laps or couches! We have relapsed to using the box again to try to get her feeling comfortable, but if she slides while using that, we start all over again. Her biggest trouble comes from her own fear of slipping. I did have a little empathy for her tonight, as she tried to jump in, but slipped back out. I saw how she jumps differently when she is afraid. I actually can relate to her as I have dealt with that paralyzing fear when I play the guitar in front of a crowd. It only took a few slip ups, (the older I get the more those happen too!) now I cannot control the uncontrollable shaking I have in front of a crowd. I play differently when I somewhat expect I'm going to slip up. Maybe if I figure out how to help the dog conquer her fears, it might help me out with a few of my own!
2nd - The Cold - So far, so good, it's just running its course as a normal little cold would.
3rd - The Sugar - I have cut back drastically, but I am finding that it really makes me want to snack on something, and a carrot is not cutting the mustard, I now use skinny popcorn to fill the crevices. I'll have to let you know how detoxing from that habit goes!
Sunday, May 21, 2017
Day 73 - Surprize! - May 21
Well, another milestone, maybe not one I have been looking forward to, but something I haven't encountered these past 73+ days. It looks like I have my first cold, but here are the things I am so very happy about. First, I have a mask, so I could go to church today without sharing it with anyone! Second, so far all this has been is a little cold, with a little sore throat and cough. That means my immune system must be up and running! Hooray!
Well, another milestone, maybe not one I have been looking forward to, but something I haven't encountered these past 73+ days. It looks like I have my first cold, but here are the things I am so very happy about. First, I have a mask, so I could go to church today without sharing it with anyone! Second, so far all this has been is a little cold, with a little sore throat and cough. That means my immune system must be up and running! Hooray!
Saturday, May 20, 2017
Day 72 - Saturday is Special Day - May 20
9:07 p.m. ;
I'm starting my blog and Robert is still outside irrigating. I'm sure he could adapt this cute primary song, to 'Saturday is a Specially Long Day!' So much of this blog has been focused on my journey through through cancer and it's up's and downs, but it sure needs to be said this is not a one man journey. It is very difficult to watch the burdens (my word, not his) that my caretaker has borne through this process. It is totally humbling to think of all he has given and continues to give without complaint. What a testament to know what true love is all about in this confused world of ours, that when the going gets tough, the tough just keep going, giving and loving!
I know this journey has taken a toll on his health and his strength but he doesn't let down. The last few weeks I have been begging him to let me mow the lawn with a mask on, so he doesn't have to keep doing it all by himself, but to no avail. He did relent today however, that even 'he' is looking forward to the time when I can mow again! We are both counting the days when life returns to a resemblance of what it once was, and I couldn't be more grateful for the man I can count on!
9:07 p.m. ;
I'm starting my blog and Robert is still outside irrigating. I'm sure he could adapt this cute primary song, to 'Saturday is a Specially Long Day!' So much of this blog has been focused on my journey through through cancer and it's up's and downs, but it sure needs to be said this is not a one man journey. It is very difficult to watch the burdens (my word, not his) that my caretaker has borne through this process. It is totally humbling to think of all he has given and continues to give without complaint. What a testament to know what true love is all about in this confused world of ours, that when the going gets tough, the tough just keep going, giving and loving!
I know this journey has taken a toll on his health and his strength but he doesn't let down. The last few weeks I have been begging him to let me mow the lawn with a mask on, so he doesn't have to keep doing it all by himself, but to no avail. He did relent today however, that even 'he' is looking forward to the time when I can mow again! We are both counting the days when life returns to a resemblance of what it once was, and I couldn't be more grateful for the man I can count on!
Friday, May 19, 2017
Day 71 - A Spoonful of Sugar - May 19
It's hard to believe that there is less than a month left before we reach day 100. We've come so far in so many ways, at least that is in all but one of those ways, and that has to do with the title of today's blog. I wish I could say my issue had to do with just a spoonful of sugar, but that's not quite the case anymore. When I first got home, I really didn't crave sugar, in fact I can say I really didn't crave much. It was quite the challenge just to find those things that were palatable enough to stay down. Fast forward to these current times, it seems that there are many things on top of that palatable list and most have sugar as their top ingredient. In one of the tests that were done at the beginning of this journey they had me drink a sugary concoction then scanned to see where those cancer cells were. Sure enough where ever the sugar was, those cells were attracted right to it. Those little cells were so happy in that sugary environment they lit right up.
Well, I really don't want those cells lighting up my life anymore, so it's time to put them on a diet. I figure if I am going to be held accountable to that pledge I'd put it out for the world to see. I know I can't quit cold turkey, well, I probably could quit cold turkey easier than quitting sugar again, but also I know that balance is the key. So, here's to eating the good stuff, without stuffing in the sugary goods! Another milestone to conquer!
It's hard to believe that there is less than a month left before we reach day 100. We've come so far in so many ways, at least that is in all but one of those ways, and that has to do with the title of today's blog. I wish I could say my issue had to do with just a spoonful of sugar, but that's not quite the case anymore. When I first got home, I really didn't crave sugar, in fact I can say I really didn't crave much. It was quite the challenge just to find those things that were palatable enough to stay down. Fast forward to these current times, it seems that there are many things on top of that palatable list and most have sugar as their top ingredient. In one of the tests that were done at the beginning of this journey they had me drink a sugary concoction then scanned to see where those cancer cells were. Sure enough where ever the sugar was, those cells were attracted right to it. Those little cells were so happy in that sugary environment they lit right up.
Well, I really don't want those cells lighting up my life anymore, so it's time to put them on a diet. I figure if I am going to be held accountable to that pledge I'd put it out for the world to see. I know I can't quit cold turkey, well, I probably could quit cold turkey easier than quitting sugar again, but also I know that balance is the key. So, here's to eating the good stuff, without stuffing in the sugary goods! Another milestone to conquer!
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Day 70 - Balance - May 18th
Today at my exercise class, I mentioned that I was a little stiff, from the last workout. My trainer said that there were a few stretches that could help out with that. As he showed me the stretches he also explained the mechanics of the muscle as it is challenged to do harder things. He said that as the muscle is worked, it produces a product called lactic acid which makes the muscle want to contract. Stretching counteracts that, and can help alleviate part of that pain.
I thought about that as I was traveling home and wondered if that could apply to other areas of my life as well. It seems that muscles need balance to keep them from going through unnecessary pain, as well as people need balance in their lives to help them from going through unnecessary pain. Whether our lives become too focused on work, sports, t.v., video games, face book, or other things (that could even be beneficial) we should have a counter action that helps stretch us back to being balanced. That is the challenge isn't it. When I first returned home, my schedule was very simple and was mostly focused on getting better. As I have been getting better, and have been able to put more of life's real tasks in place, I am beginning to feel somewhat concerned with being able to balance those tasks with those things that matter most. I am hoping that the Lord helps me stretch those muscles that keep life in balance as I try build my capacity to accomplish more with my time. I guess that's what is so wonderful about the gospel, each week I get the chance to reset, refocus, and re-balance!
Today at my exercise class, I mentioned that I was a little stiff, from the last workout. My trainer said that there were a few stretches that could help out with that. As he showed me the stretches he also explained the mechanics of the muscle as it is challenged to do harder things. He said that as the muscle is worked, it produces a product called lactic acid which makes the muscle want to contract. Stretching counteracts that, and can help alleviate part of that pain.
I thought about that as I was traveling home and wondered if that could apply to other areas of my life as well. It seems that muscles need balance to keep them from going through unnecessary pain, as well as people need balance in their lives to help them from going through unnecessary pain. Whether our lives become too focused on work, sports, t.v., video games, face book, or other things (that could even be beneficial) we should have a counter action that helps stretch us back to being balanced. That is the challenge isn't it. When I first returned home, my schedule was very simple and was mostly focused on getting better. As I have been getting better, and have been able to put more of life's real tasks in place, I am beginning to feel somewhat concerned with being able to balance those tasks with those things that matter most. I am hoping that the Lord helps me stretch those muscles that keep life in balance as I try build my capacity to accomplish more with my time. I guess that's what is so wonderful about the gospel, each week I get the chance to reset, refocus, and re-balance!
Wednesday, May 17, 2017
Day 69 - All in Perspective - May 17th
Since yesterday's blog had to do with my change of perspective, when I saw this video posted on one of our friends Facebook page, I knew I'd like to share it with more people. Like I said, I did not find this video on my own but felt it was definitely a benefit to all those that view it. I hope you enjoy!
Since yesterday's blog had to do with my change of perspective, when I saw this video posted on one of our friends Facebook page, I knew I'd like to share it with more people. Like I said, I did not find this video on my own but felt it was definitely a benefit to all those that view it. I hope you enjoy!
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
Day 68 -Unexpected Lessons Learned - May 16th
This journey so far has come with many interesting experiences. These 68 days have had plenty of high roads lined with miracles and blessings that never could have been expected, and that have lifted my life to heights only these experiences could have brought. I have never felt so humbled and loved than at this time of my life, as there have been so many that have unselfishly reached out given of their love in so many ways. I also know how invaluable the love and support of my family can be, which I am forever indebted and grateful for.
This journey has had it's share of twists and turns along the way. Some of the experiences I've been through have been expected, although not looked forward to, many however have brought lessons I never expected. I would like to share a couple of those
this evening.
When I first returned home, with no hair and having to wear my mask whenever I had encounters with real people. (Yes, Robert counts as real, but he lovingly committed not to run away),
I was acutely aware of what I thought were my oddities. I truly felt that I was scary to children, that I didn't quite fit in anymore. I heard mothers having to quiet their children's questions as I passed them in the store, and began to realize what someone who had true handicaps might feel as they also might hear those whispers.
Lesson 1 for me: Treat those with differences in the same way I would treat a good friend. I don't need to avoid contact or questions, and I can genuinely offer help in any way with lots of smiles. Now I realize many of you already do these things comfortably but I think that sometimes I have felt awkward in some of the contact I have had.
Even though I count this as a good lesson learned, a little more seasoning has brought me a little more understanding. My daughter has always assured me that there was no fear in the eyes of my grandchildren. That they loved and accepted me no matter what, she has even encouraged me to bear the bare head proudly!(an offer I have declined on most occasions) As time has passed, I have seen the truth of her statement, I can wear hair or hat, I can be masked or not, and they still call me grandma, the sweetest name on earth. With that support I have felt a change in me, I no longer need to feel as awkward wearing my mask in public situations. I am finding that interactions with people and especially children are less awkward when I act like myself. When I'm happy and reach out the barriers that I perceived melt away.
Lesson 2 for me: A mask can hide my smile, but not my eyes, and I need to let those smile a lot more!😁
This journey so far has come with many interesting experiences. These 68 days have had plenty of high roads lined with miracles and blessings that never could have been expected, and that have lifted my life to heights only these experiences could have brought. I have never felt so humbled and loved than at this time of my life, as there have been so many that have unselfishly reached out given of their love in so many ways. I also know how invaluable the love and support of my family can be, which I am forever indebted and grateful for.
This journey has had it's share of twists and turns along the way. Some of the experiences I've been through have been expected, although not looked forward to, many however have brought lessons I never expected. I would like to share a couple of those
this evening.
When I first returned home, with no hair and having to wear my mask whenever I had encounters with real people. (Yes, Robert counts as real, but he lovingly committed not to run away),
I was acutely aware of what I thought were my oddities. I truly felt that I was scary to children, that I didn't quite fit in anymore. I heard mothers having to quiet their children's questions as I passed them in the store, and began to realize what someone who had true handicaps might feel as they also might hear those whispers.
Lesson 1 for me: Treat those with differences in the same way I would treat a good friend. I don't need to avoid contact or questions, and I can genuinely offer help in any way with lots of smiles. Now I realize many of you already do these things comfortably but I think that sometimes I have felt awkward in some of the contact I have had.
Even though I count this as a good lesson learned, a little more seasoning has brought me a little more understanding. My daughter has always assured me that there was no fear in the eyes of my grandchildren. That they loved and accepted me no matter what, she has even encouraged me to bear the bare head proudly!(an offer I have declined on most occasions) As time has passed, I have seen the truth of her statement, I can wear hair or hat, I can be masked or not, and they still call me grandma, the sweetest name on earth. With that support I have felt a change in me, I no longer need to feel as awkward wearing my mask in public situations. I am finding that interactions with people and especially children are less awkward when I act like myself. When I'm happy and reach out the barriers that I perceived melt away.
Lesson 2 for me: A mask can hide my smile, but not my eyes, and I need to let those smile a lot more!😁
Monday, May 15, 2017
Day 67 - Inspiration - May 15th
With all the new gifts I was given for Mother's Day, it inspired me to finally get my hutch and wall decorated again, something I haven't been able to complete since being back home for some reason. I guess I just didn't have enough cute things! With all of the fun things I have been generously given over the past couple of months, and my new gifts yesterday, it sure made for a fun morning and a feeling of satisfaction to get things looking 'Inspirational'!
With all the new gifts I was given for Mother's Day, it inspired me to finally get my hutch and wall decorated again, something I haven't been able to complete since being back home for some reason. I guess I just didn't have enough cute things! With all of the fun things I have been generously given over the past couple of months, and my new gifts yesterday, it sure made for a fun morning and a feeling of satisfaction to get things looking 'Inspirational'!
Sunday, May 14, 2017
Day 66 - Happy Mothers Day! - May 14th
There is nothing better for a grandmother/mother than to have her children and grandchildren together in one place! Thank you to my loving family (as well as some extended family!) for making my day totally incredible! I love you all, and thank you for all that you are and all that you do!
Cute moment of day; usually by afternoon I am wearing my hat, because it is so much more comfortable than my wig. My grandchildren are quite accustom to that look, since most of the time that I see them, I am in my comfortable mode. Today, being Mother's Day, I decided I should dress up my head, and wear my wig. My youngest granddaughter came running by an exclaimed, "I like your haircut, grandma!") Me too! And I'll like it even better when I really have some to cut!
There is nothing better for a grandmother/mother than to have her children and grandchildren together in one place! Thank you to my loving family (as well as some extended family!) for making my day totally incredible! I love you all, and thank you for all that you are and all that you do!
Cute moment of day; usually by afternoon I am wearing my hat, because it is so much more comfortable than my wig. My grandchildren are quite accustom to that look, since most of the time that I see them, I am in my comfortable mode. Today, being Mother's Day, I decided I should dress up my head, and wear my wig. My youngest granddaughter came running by an exclaimed, "I like your haircut, grandma!") Me too! And I'll like it even better when I really have some to cut!
Saturday, May 13, 2017
Day 65 - And They Keep Coming - May 13th
The milestones continue, last evening we ate out for the first time at an actual restaurant. We celebrated our daughter-in-law's birthday up in Park City at a beautiful restaurant. The setting was beautiful, the food was beautiful and our company was beautiful! We enjoyed every minute, and somehow by some miracle we had the entire restaurant to our ourselves, so I didn't even have to wear my ankle bracelet (mask). That's just beautiful don't you think!
The milestones continue, last evening we ate out for the first time at an actual restaurant. We celebrated our daughter-in-law's birthday up in Park City at a beautiful restaurant. The setting was beautiful, the food was beautiful and our company was beautiful! We enjoyed every minute, and somehow by some miracle we had the entire restaurant to our ourselves, so I didn't even have to wear my ankle bracelet (mask). That's just beautiful don't you think!
Beautiful Dessert!
Friday, May 12, 2017
Day 64 - Ice Challenge # 2 - May 12th
This morning when I went to put ice in my water bottle, the ice wouldn't come out of the ice dispenser as it was blocked. I had to take the ice chamber apart and dig the ice out which was caught in the dispenser. As I began to dig, my hands got cold and a few of the ice chips splashed out on my face, giving me a sensation that immediatly transported me back 64 days ago - to Ice Challenge # 1. In an instant, I was there, sitting in chair 5-C with my cooler filled with 10 lbs of ice, covered in a hospital blanket, chewing as fast as I could to keep the Chemo from giving me mouth soars. All of the feelings and fears of not knowing what was to come came rushing back to my mind, as well as the realization of knowing we have made it through hard things. I wondered how 64 days could go by so fast and yet seem so long ago.
I feel so humble and grateful to realize all of the incredible blessings that have been bestowed upon me at this crucial time. I know that my Heavenly Father is totally aware of my situation and lifted and blessed me in even the most minute details of this journey! I am thankful for a family that has rallied and given so much of their time and love to support me through this all, and for friends that continue their incredible kindness'. Most importantly, I can never say enough about my incredible loving caregiver who has sacrificed his all, to make sure I have stayed safe and healthy and comfortable. Lastly, I am sure glad Ice Challenge # 2, was just a flashback!
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This morning when I went to put ice in my water bottle, the ice wouldn't come out of the ice dispenser as it was blocked. I had to take the ice chamber apart and dig the ice out which was caught in the dispenser. As I began to dig, my hands got cold and a few of the ice chips splashed out on my face, giving me a sensation that immediatly transported me back 64 days ago - to Ice Challenge # 1. In an instant, I was there, sitting in chair 5-C with my cooler filled with 10 lbs of ice, covered in a hospital blanket, chewing as fast as I could to keep the Chemo from giving me mouth soars. All of the feelings and fears of not knowing what was to come came rushing back to my mind, as well as the realization of knowing we have made it through hard things. I wondered how 64 days could go by so fast and yet seem so long ago.
I feel so humble and grateful to realize all of the incredible blessings that have been bestowed upon me at this crucial time. I know that my Heavenly Father is totally aware of my situation and lifted and blessed me in even the most minute details of this journey! I am thankful for a family that has rallied and given so much of their time and love to support me through this all, and for friends that continue their incredible kindness'. Most importantly, I can never say enough about my incredible loving caregiver who has sacrificed his all, to make sure I have stayed safe and healthy and comfortable. Lastly, I am sure glad Ice Challenge # 2, was just a flashback!
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Thursday, May 11, 2017
Day 63 - Germination Time 🙆 - May 11th
We had a wedding to go to tonight, so I had my hat off while I was getting ready. I hadn't put on my wig yet when the sun hit the mirror just right. It actually looked like there was something breaking up the shimmer on my head. I moved in closer to get a better look, and it seemed like there was actually a little fuzz there on top of my head. It was mostly all white so I couldn't be sure.
I stood there trying to decide if I was imagining things or not when Robert came in and remarked, "Hey are you getting hair?"
That was it, that's all it took for me to declare, "My sprickles have turned to sprouts!" You gotta love spring, don't ya!!
We had a wedding to go to tonight, so I had my hat off while I was getting ready. I hadn't put on my wig yet when the sun hit the mirror just right. It actually looked like there was something breaking up the shimmer on my head. I moved in closer to get a better look, and it seemed like there was actually a little fuzz there on top of my head. It was mostly all white so I couldn't be sure.
I stood there trying to decide if I was imagining things or not when Robert came in and remarked, "Hey are you getting hair?"
That was it, that's all it took for me to declare, "My sprickles have turned to sprouts!" You gotta love spring, don't ya!!
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Day 62 - Try, Try Again - May 10th
I hope you can handle another dog story.(My life has very limited horizons right now) We have been continuing to work with Kimba on jumping up in the car as I had signed her up for training classes, about 10 miles away and she would need to take a little ride to get there. We have progressively scaled back the size of the box she has been using to jump up in the back of our Murano with each day until we have gotten down to a small 2" foam mat. She has been hopping in and out with ease as long as we use the mat. If we take away the mat she struggles. Her first class was tonight so the plan was to just take the mat in the car with us so she would feel comfortable hopping in after class.
We arrived for class on time and met with about 20 other dogs and owners. The class was extremely challenging for Kimba, as she was so supercharged at seeing the other dogs. She got really good at pulling on the leash, barking and totally ignoring my every command, but she was just about par with the other dogs, so I decided not to worry yet. I am pretty sure she had no clue that I had come along for the ride, (the one she was giving me around the lawn perimeters), but she still seemed to enjoy herself! That is until class was over, the minute she saw the car, she laid down on the ground, (I knew she had heard that down command I had given her earlier in class, it was just a delayed reaction!) She was not budging! I finally got her feet up on the bumper and Wa-la she didn't jump in, but my strength training has paid off, I just lifted her in! Triumph amid Trial! Another good day!
I hope you can handle another dog story.(My life has very limited horizons right now) We have been continuing to work with Kimba on jumping up in the car as I had signed her up for training classes, about 10 miles away and she would need to take a little ride to get there. We have progressively scaled back the size of the box she has been using to jump up in the back of our Murano with each day until we have gotten down to a small 2" foam mat. She has been hopping in and out with ease as long as we use the mat. If we take away the mat she struggles. Her first class was tonight so the plan was to just take the mat in the car with us so she would feel comfortable hopping in after class.
We arrived for class on time and met with about 20 other dogs and owners. The class was extremely challenging for Kimba, as she was so supercharged at seeing the other dogs. She got really good at pulling on the leash, barking and totally ignoring my every command, but she was just about par with the other dogs, so I decided not to worry yet. I am pretty sure she had no clue that I had come along for the ride, (the one she was giving me around the lawn perimeters), but she still seemed to enjoy herself! That is until class was over, the minute she saw the car, she laid down on the ground, (I knew she had heard that down command I had given her earlier in class, it was just a delayed reaction!) She was not budging! I finally got her feet up on the bumper and Wa-la she didn't jump in, but my strength training has paid off, I just lifted her in! Triumph amid Trial! Another good day!
Tuesday, May 9, 2017
Day 61- Another Step Closer to Normal - May 9th
I started teaching guitar again this past week, I guess I could call it getting back to work, but truly this is a case of getting back to fun! With the incredible students that I have, it is a totally delightful experience! It is something that brings me a lot joy and according to the therapists up at the Huntsman Hospital, it is good exercise for my brain too! It (my brain) has certainly been on vacation a little too long!
While I am so happy to be getting back to the things I love, I must say it comes with a new perspective this time. No matter how much I love teaching and how fulfilling it is to me, I realize that it can never replace those experiences that come with having and being in a family. I understand those fleeting moments that come with children, grandchildren and an incredible husband, are gone all too fast! Each moment is a treasure that doesn't always wait for us to behold! This is just another blessing that has come with this journey, perhaps one I wished I had learned much earlier.
I started teaching guitar again this past week, I guess I could call it getting back to work, but truly this is a case of getting back to fun! With the incredible students that I have, it is a totally delightful experience! It is something that brings me a lot joy and according to the therapists up at the Huntsman Hospital, it is good exercise for my brain too! It (my brain) has certainly been on vacation a little too long!
While I am so happy to be getting back to the things I love, I must say it comes with a new perspective this time. No matter how much I love teaching and how fulfilling it is to me, I realize that it can never replace those experiences that come with having and being in a family. I understand those fleeting moments that come with children, grandchildren and an incredible husband, are gone all too fast! Each moment is a treasure that doesn't always wait for us to behold! This is just another blessing that has come with this journey, perhaps one I wished I had learned much earlier.
Monday, May 8, 2017
Day 60 - Kind Hearts, Great Minds - May 8th
People continue to brighten my life in so many ways! It has been so wonderful to hear from and have visits from the sweetest, caring friends and family. My cup runneth over with gratitude, and astonishment with the kindness' that are so freely given out of love! I've got to just share one more clever way that people have made sure I'm not missing out of the beauties of spring.
This little humming bird feeder will make sure I don't miss out on one of those rare moments that we enjoy the same space with some of God's littlest beauties! I thought this might be a good idea to share with those of you that haven't done your Mother's day shopping yet!!
Sunday, May 7, 2017
Day 59 - Part 2 - May 7th
Today's blog is a continuation from yesterday's blog, if you would like to check out yesterday's blog one more time, our techno help (darling daughter # 4) did fix the video portion. As you can see in the waterfall, the dog has no inhibitions about jumping or heights.
Now, to tie the ends together of this blog and the previous no jumping in the car, dog blog. It seems to be if you change up the circumstances or the variables of the scenario, things that were quite difficult or nearly impossible somehow under new circumstances seem almost effortless. If we apply this to the challenges and struggles we face in our journey to perfection, perhaps we need to try a new perspective. Maybe we can't approach those stumbling blocks the same way we have always done. Perhaps with God's help, we can see a new vision, his vision for us, it might be totally different than ours. Then as we turn to his vision we'll be free of those limitations that we have actually placed on ourselves.
Today's blog is a continuation from yesterday's blog, if you would like to check out yesterday's blog one more time, our techno help (darling daughter # 4) did fix the video portion. As you can see in the waterfall, the dog has no inhibitions about jumping or heights.
Now, to tie the ends together of this blog and the previous no jumping in the car, dog blog. It seems to be if you change up the circumstances or the variables of the scenario, things that were quite difficult or nearly impossible somehow under new circumstances seem almost effortless. If we apply this to the challenges and struggles we face in our journey to perfection, perhaps we need to try a new perspective. Maybe we can't approach those stumbling blocks the same way we have always done. Perhaps with God's help, we can see a new vision, his vision for us, it might be totally different than ours. Then as we turn to his vision we'll be free of those limitations that we have actually placed on ourselves.
Saturday, May 6, 2017
Day 58 - Wouldn't You Know it, Doggone it!
Remember the dog that couldn't jump in the car yesterday, well we turned on our waterfall today! Same dog, but not the same results, we wanted to show you 'Amazing wonder dog' video tonight, but our techno support team was unavailable, and when you are older than 50, that means you're stuck with a picture. Hopefully this entices you to tune in at some future point for the real adventure!
Remember the dog that couldn't jump in the car yesterday, well we turned on our waterfall today! Same dog, but not the same results, we wanted to show you 'Amazing wonder dog' video tonight, but our techno support team was unavailable, and when you are older than 50, that means you're stuck with a picture. Hopefully this entices you to tune in at some future point for the real adventure!
Friday, May 5, 2017
Day 57 - High Hopes - May 5th
Today's lesson comes straight from the dog, or puppy to be exact. If you have followed this blog, you have probably seen pictures of our cute (once little) puppy. Now at 8 months old she is almost full grown! She has always been on the timid side, and having been bit as a young pup, had developed a few fear issues. She was able to overcome a lot of those issues while staying with my daughter and her family. She found much solace spending happy time with her 'siblings' (My daughter's children!)
One of the challenges we have really been trying to work on lately with Kimba, is to get her to jump up in the back of the Murano (our SUV). It is something she has been deathly afraid of, and we have tried and tried to figure out a way to make her feel more secure. For awhile we were able to get her to put her feet up on the bumper, so we could at least lift her backside up to get her in. Then for some reason she decided she was afraid of that, so any time we went to lift her up, she would get down and run away. It took weeks to get her to put her feet up again. Then while visiting my daughter's house, her husband just told her to get in, and to our shock, she jumped in, no problem. I had a lot of treats on hand so I just poured them out to reward her. We tried it again, it worked! She jumped in again no problem, and again she was rewarded with a jack-pot of treats. Thrilled, I hurried home to show Robert what she could do..... but....... no matter what we tried she wasn't going there again, for any amount of treats. We went a couple weeks without any success, in fact, most of the time we tried, she would just lay down and bark at us.
We needed a new approach, so we put a box down that she could jump on, to get her closer to the back of the Murano. It took awhile and many of the most tempting treats we could dream of, but she finally made the leap!(well, actually hop) Over and over again we practiced this, until she could do it without any effort. We repeated this for a couple of days, then it was time to try it without the box. Whoa, the brakes came out again. We coaxed and encouraged with all our might using the best heated homemade gourmet treats we could think of ..... she just barked at us. Now with all this barking, she had gotten the attention of the neighbor dog and he came to see what all the ruckus was about. When he smelt the goodies in the back of car, he knew exactly what to do, and he hopped in the car.
So here is the scene, our Golden Retriever is barking at the back of the car and up comes the neighbor dog who is a little Boston Terrier, he hops in the back of the Murano with the greatest of ease and eats the best meal of his life!
You might think this picture is looking pretty grim at this point but there is a redeeming feature here we hadn't planned on. Kimba decided that the neighbor dog was not getting all her treats and hopped in to protect her interests. Hooray, score again (finally!)
We must have practiced hopping in and out at least 25 times, she was leaping like a gazelle, which was probably hard with all the treats she was getting! With a deep sigh of relief and feeling of great elation, we called it done for the evening.
We practiced again the next day, beginning with the box and working our way back up to the full leap, all went perfect! We had this in the bag! To keep the routine going we practiced again today.
things were right on course as we started with the box and then removed it as we had previously done, when she jumped this time she didn't stick the landing as well as she had before but it was still safe. I still had lots of treats so we tried to keep the momentum going...............No such luck...... Defeat again...... After all we had been through, and here we were again........Me in the Murano, and Kimba laying on the cement barking at me.......Where is the neighbor dog when you need him?
Well I kind of pouted the rest of the evening, while I was pouting I did do a little reflecting on the whole situation. I was quite disappointed, wondering why she would revert back so far, when she had this. I also thought about me and my behaviors and shortcomings, and wondered how my Heavenly Father feels when I revert back to bad habits and fall short of my potential. This put things much more in perspective. I am so thankful that we have the chance to begin, again and again, no matter how many times it takes to get it right and keep it right, thanks to our Savior and His Atonement, His high hopes for us never diminishes.
Today's lesson comes straight from the dog, or puppy to be exact. If you have followed this blog, you have probably seen pictures of our cute (once little) puppy. Now at 8 months old she is almost full grown! She has always been on the timid side, and having been bit as a young pup, had developed a few fear issues. She was able to overcome a lot of those issues while staying with my daughter and her family. She found much solace spending happy time with her 'siblings' (My daughter's children!)
One of the challenges we have really been trying to work on lately with Kimba, is to get her to jump up in the back of the Murano (our SUV). It is something she has been deathly afraid of, and we have tried and tried to figure out a way to make her feel more secure. For awhile we were able to get her to put her feet up on the bumper, so we could at least lift her backside up to get her in. Then for some reason she decided she was afraid of that, so any time we went to lift her up, she would get down and run away. It took weeks to get her to put her feet up again. Then while visiting my daughter's house, her husband just told her to get in, and to our shock, she jumped in, no problem. I had a lot of treats on hand so I just poured them out to reward her. We tried it again, it worked! She jumped in again no problem, and again she was rewarded with a jack-pot of treats. Thrilled, I hurried home to show Robert what she could do..... but....... no matter what we tried she wasn't going there again, for any amount of treats. We went a couple weeks without any success, in fact, most of the time we tried, she would just lay down and bark at us.
We needed a new approach, so we put a box down that she could jump on, to get her closer to the back of the Murano. It took awhile and many of the most tempting treats we could dream of, but she finally made the leap!(well, actually hop) Over and over again we practiced this, until she could do it without any effort. We repeated this for a couple of days, then it was time to try it without the box. Whoa, the brakes came out again. We coaxed and encouraged with all our might using the best heated homemade gourmet treats we could think of ..... she just barked at us. Now with all this barking, she had gotten the attention of the neighbor dog and he came to see what all the ruckus was about. When he smelt the goodies in the back of car, he knew exactly what to do, and he hopped in the car.
So here is the scene, our Golden Retriever is barking at the back of the car and up comes the neighbor dog who is a little Boston Terrier, he hops in the back of the Murano with the greatest of ease and eats the best meal of his life!
You might think this picture is looking pretty grim at this point but there is a redeeming feature here we hadn't planned on. Kimba decided that the neighbor dog was not getting all her treats and hopped in to protect her interests. Hooray, score again (finally!)
We must have practiced hopping in and out at least 25 times, she was leaping like a gazelle, which was probably hard with all the treats she was getting! With a deep sigh of relief and feeling of great elation, we called it done for the evening.
We practiced again the next day, beginning with the box and working our way back up to the full leap, all went perfect! We had this in the bag! To keep the routine going we practiced again today.
things were right on course as we started with the box and then removed it as we had previously done, when she jumped this time she didn't stick the landing as well as she had before but it was still safe. I still had lots of treats so we tried to keep the momentum going...............No such luck...... Defeat again...... After all we had been through, and here we were again........Me in the Murano, and Kimba laying on the cement barking at me.......Where is the neighbor dog when you need him?
Well I kind of pouted the rest of the evening, while I was pouting I did do a little reflecting on the whole situation. I was quite disappointed, wondering why she would revert back so far, when she had this. I also thought about me and my behaviors and shortcomings, and wondered how my Heavenly Father feels when I revert back to bad habits and fall short of my potential. This put things much more in perspective. I am so thankful that we have the chance to begin, again and again, no matter how many times it takes to get it right and keep it right, thanks to our Savior and His Atonement, His high hopes for us never diminishes.
Thursday, May 4, 2017
Day 56 - Wahoo! - May 4th
This morning was possibly the best morning I have had since my stem cell transplant. I actually felt incredibly good and full of energy! A feeling that I had forgotten had existed. It's not like I have been feeling bad either, I know that each day I have been getting stronger, but I would say that we definitely took a hop, skip and a jump ahead today! I was able to hurry through chores this morning, and felt good in my strength training class. After shopping, (something I always have energy for) I was able to catch up on a few other chores that have been just waiting for me! It just felt so good all under and all over!
With such a great morning, I do have to say, by afternoon I just had to celebrate with a good old nap! Maybe that's a guilty pleasure that I'll be able to get rid of one day in the future, but right now, I don't mind feeling guilty!
This morning was possibly the best morning I have had since my stem cell transplant. I actually felt incredibly good and full of energy! A feeling that I had forgotten had existed. It's not like I have been feeling bad either, I know that each day I have been getting stronger, but I would say that we definitely took a hop, skip and a jump ahead today! I was able to hurry through chores this morning, and felt good in my strength training class. After shopping, (something I always have energy for) I was able to catch up on a few other chores that have been just waiting for me! It just felt so good all under and all over!
With such a great morning, I do have to say, by afternoon I just had to celebrate with a good old nap! Maybe that's a guilty pleasure that I'll be able to get rid of one day in the future, but right now, I don't mind feeling guilty!
Wednesday, May 3, 2017
Day 55 - And the Little Child Shall Lead Them - May 3rd
I had an interesting happening today, the neighborhood children were over to our house to jump on our Trampoline. They came to the door to ask for a drink. Now they only live next door so they wouldn't have too far to go to get a drink at their house. As we have gone through this process many times before , this request is usually followed by many other requests for varied items usually of upgraded value. In order to perhaps avoid an afternoon of many interruptions it has been suggested to me to simply tell the children that they could run home quick to get their drink and come right back to play. This is a difficult thing for me to do, as my heart is as soft as my head.
Long story short, I just got them some little paper cups and a pitcher of ice water so they could drink when they wanted. Then I remembered I had some chocolate I wanted to use, so I thought I could make a quick batch of cookies they could eat while they were jumping. When I brought the cookies out they were delighted! As I was returning to the house, I heard our neighbor say to her friend, "Would you like to say the prayer or should I?" Her friend opted out. Curious, I stopped by the door before going inside just to listen. There, out by our trampoline was offered the most eloquent little prayer from the heart of a child who not only was grateful for the cookies but had such sweet things to say about her neighbor (me).
It made me cry to see how grateful she could be over such a simple thing. Lesson for today, be more like a child, and be truly grateful for the simple things God gives us each day!
I had an interesting happening today, the neighborhood children were over to our house to jump on our Trampoline. They came to the door to ask for a drink. Now they only live next door so they wouldn't have too far to go to get a drink at their house. As we have gone through this process many times before , this request is usually followed by many other requests for varied items usually of upgraded value. In order to perhaps avoid an afternoon of many interruptions it has been suggested to me to simply tell the children that they could run home quick to get their drink and come right back to play. This is a difficult thing for me to do, as my heart is as soft as my head.
Long story short, I just got them some little paper cups and a pitcher of ice water so they could drink when they wanted. Then I remembered I had some chocolate I wanted to use, so I thought I could make a quick batch of cookies they could eat while they were jumping. When I brought the cookies out they were delighted! As I was returning to the house, I heard our neighbor say to her friend, "Would you like to say the prayer or should I?" Her friend opted out. Curious, I stopped by the door before going inside just to listen. There, out by our trampoline was offered the most eloquent little prayer from the heart of a child who not only was grateful for the cookies but had such sweet things to say about her neighbor (me).
It made me cry to see how grateful she could be over such a simple thing. Lesson for today, be more like a child, and be truly grateful for the simple things God gives us each day!
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
Day 54 - Spring Cleaning - May 2nd
I guess with spring flowers comes Spring Cleaning! I went all out and tackled my purse! As I unloaded it, I found a few items that I am ecstatic about moving out permanently or at least for what I hope is a very long time. The first was the trusty little thermometer we bought at the beginning of the stem cell process. It was just a little inexpensive old fashioned oral thermometer, and was probably used way more than it's fair share, but it sure calmed those fever fears of that volatile first couple of weeks.
Next, (apologies for graphic detail here, anyone with a queasy tummy might want to end reading this blog now!) was the little green discreet Throw Up Bag, provided by the nurses at Huntsman so cheerfully! I did keep it neatly stored in a Ziploc Bag, but how wonderful it has been to keep it discreetly tucked away and not used for so long! Some memories are the best when you just let them go!!
That I can happily do! 😤
I guess with spring flowers comes Spring Cleaning! I went all out and tackled my purse! As I unloaded it, I found a few items that I am ecstatic about moving out permanently or at least for what I hope is a very long time. The first was the trusty little thermometer we bought at the beginning of the stem cell process. It was just a little inexpensive old fashioned oral thermometer, and was probably used way more than it's fair share, but it sure calmed those fever fears of that volatile first couple of weeks.
Next, (apologies for graphic detail here, anyone with a queasy tummy might want to end reading this blog now!) was the little green discreet Throw Up Bag, provided by the nurses at Huntsman so cheerfully! I did keep it neatly stored in a Ziploc Bag, but how wonderful it has been to keep it discreetly tucked away and not used for so long! Some memories are the best when you just let them go!!
That I can happily do! 😤
Monday, May 1, 2017
Day 53 - Signs of Spring - May 1st
They say April Showers bring May Flowers, but a wonderfully talented friend made these! They are all made of paper, and they are so incredibly beautiful and bright! They just bring the sunshine into our home! It never ceases to amaze me how many ways there are to make someones day! I have certainly been the recipient of so many people's kind and incredible talents. I am so very grateful and humble to have been touched by so much love! Spring is such a beautiful time both indoors and out around here, especially with the garden variety of flowers that have been generously gifted to a lady who the doctor told couldn't have flowers! The doctor just didn't have a clue how ingeniously talented women can be!
They say April Showers bring May Flowers, but a wonderfully talented friend made these! They are all made of paper, and they are so incredibly beautiful and bright! They just bring the sunshine into our home! It never ceases to amaze me how many ways there are to make someones day! I have certainly been the recipient of so many people's kind and incredible talents. I am so very grateful and humble to have been touched by so much love! Spring is such a beautiful time both indoors and out around here, especially with the garden variety of flowers that have been generously gifted to a lady who the doctor told couldn't have flowers! The doctor just didn't have a clue how ingeniously talented women can be!
Sunday, April 30, 2017
Day 52 - Finding Hope through Faith- April 30th
Yesterday I mentioned that so many people seem to be going through health and other struggles at this time. I don't know if the number of people affected is really increasing, or maybe we're just finding out through higher technology, and advanced sciences what people have and could have. Trials and Adversity is not something that has popped up in the last decade. It is something that came with the fall of Adam, but when those trials seem to prolong their stay on our doorstep, sometimes it seems awfully hard to hold on.
We all know that there needs be opposition in all things. We know that we are refined into the people that we can become through trials. Many of the true blessings we experience in this life actually come in the form of adversity. Knowing all that, still there are times when we can become so overwhelmed that we can feel defeated and hopeless. As I contemplated the woes that affect so many, I remembered this touching video from Elder Holland. I am hoping that if there are any that have felt this way, that watching or re-watching this video might uplift and heal their path when the journey gets tough.
Yesterday I mentioned that so many people seem to be going through health and other struggles at this time. I don't know if the number of people affected is really increasing, or maybe we're just finding out through higher technology, and advanced sciences what people have and could have. Trials and Adversity is not something that has popped up in the last decade. It is something that came with the fall of Adam, but when those trials seem to prolong their stay on our doorstep, sometimes it seems awfully hard to hold on.
We all know that there needs be opposition in all things. We know that we are refined into the people that we can become through trials. Many of the true blessings we experience in this life actually come in the form of adversity. Knowing all that, still there are times when we can become so overwhelmed that we can feel defeated and hopeless. As I contemplated the woes that affect so many, I remembered this touching video from Elder Holland. I am hoping that if there are any that have felt this way, that watching or re-watching this video might uplift and heal their path when the journey gets tough.
Elder Holland - Good Things To Come
Saturday, April 29, 2017
Day 51 - Finding Familiar Stories - April 29th
I was able to attend a wedding and a wedding shower today, and saw many of my long time friends and acquaintances that I haven't seen for a for quite a while. What a joyful time we had!
As we talked and caught up with each others lives, it was very interesting to hear so many of those that I spoke with were either dealing personally with significant health issues, or their loved ones were. It seems as if there is a major growing number of diseases affecting someone in every family, and many of those illness's are puzzling our doctors with no cure yet found. Even though it's very concerning to hear of these trials affecting so many of those I care about, I thought, how wonderful it is that we can all meet together, and still have joy and happiness in our friendship and love. That we can celebrate the good that happens in others lives, and for a while forget those trials in our own! Isn't it wonderful that we are not alone in this world nor do our lives go unnoticed by God and His Son. We can find reasons to rejoice, both in this life and in our lives to come!
I was able to attend a wedding and a wedding shower today, and saw many of my long time friends and acquaintances that I haven't seen for a for quite a while. What a joyful time we had!
As we talked and caught up with each others lives, it was very interesting to hear so many of those that I spoke with were either dealing personally with significant health issues, or their loved ones were. It seems as if there is a major growing number of diseases affecting someone in every family, and many of those illness's are puzzling our doctors with no cure yet found. Even though it's very concerning to hear of these trials affecting so many of those I care about, I thought, how wonderful it is that we can all meet together, and still have joy and happiness in our friendship and love. That we can celebrate the good that happens in others lives, and for a while forget those trials in our own! Isn't it wonderful that we are not alone in this world nor do our lives go unnoticed by God and His Son. We can find reasons to rejoice, both in this life and in our lives to come!
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